IT'S FUNNY HOW PEOPLE WHO CROSS YOUR PATH IN LYFE EITHER LEAVE A POSITIVE IMPRINT OR A NEGATIVE ONE. IT'S UP TO US HOW WE CHANNEL THAT NRG SO THAT OUR ACTIONS & WORDS COME FROM RATIONALE VERSUS ANGER & PAIN. ONE MIGHT THINK IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTROL ONE'S EMOTIONS & INSTANT REACTION...BUT LIKE I ALWAYS SAY "MIND OVER MATTER".

I AM ON MY WAY TO MASTERING REFLECTIVE REACTION VERSUS IMPULSIVE REACTION. I THEREFORE REFLECT ON WHATEVA THE SITUATION MAY BE, REGROUP, PRAY THAT GOD HELPS ME REACT IN THE RIGHT WAY, AS WELL AS HELP ME DEAL WITH THE ANGER & PAIN I MAY BE FEELING.

TO HELP ME HEAL WITH NEGATIVE EMOTIONS TO HELP ME HEAL FROM PAIN TO HUMBLENESS & PEACE OF MIND & PEACE OF SOUL. WITH PRAYER... ANYTHING IS ATTAINABLE.

SEE...I BELIEVE IN GOD'S LOVE, GOD'S POWER & GOD'S WORD. THIS IS WHY I ALWAYS COME OUT OF EVERY HARD KNOCK I EXPERIENCE. GOD ALWAYZ HAS MY BACK! AMEN!

THE WORD "HATE" IS ONE I DO NOT WISH TO USE OR FEEL. I WANT EVERY NEGATIVE NRG REMOVED FROM MY BEING & MY WORLD. IT'S A TREMENDOUS CHALLENGE FOR ME TO NOT HATE CERTAIN PPL WHO HAVE DONE ME WRONG AT THIS POINT IN TIME OF MY LYFE.

LIKE TODAY...I FOUND OUT THAT A CERTAIN SOMEONE WHO CLAIMS TO LOVE ME & WANT ME IN THEIR LYFE FOR GOOD, HAS DECEIVED ME THE ENTIRE TIME & MUCH MUCH MORE THAT I CAN NOT PLACE IN THIS BLOGG. AS I WALKED HOME AFTER I FOUND OUT, I STARTED TO FEEL THIS INCREDIBLE OVERWHELMING FEELING OF HURT, PAIN, ANGER & HATE. I STOPPED MYSELF IN MY TRAX & PRAYED TO GOD. I PRAYED THAT MY MESSIAH TAKE AWAY HATE, ANGER & PAIN FROM MY HEART & FILL IT UP WITH VISION, CLARITY, LOVE, TRUTH,WISDOM, STRENGTH & FORGIVENESS. THIS IS HARD. BOIII...IS THIS HARD! BUT HERE I AM CHANELLING MY NEGATIVE EMOTIONS THRU WORD. EXPRESSING MYSELF HERE HELPS ME LET IT GO. SLOWLY, BUT SURELY.

FATHER...PLEASE HELP HEAL FROM THIS INSINERATED PAIN.... FOR THEY NOT KNOW WHAT THEY DO.

I AM STILL BLESSED.

I WILL MAKE IT.

I WILL MAKE IT B/C MY PURPOSE IS TO HELP MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE ACCEPT THEIR TRUTHS, HELP PPL BECOME BETTER INDIVIDUALS THRU ALL THE THINGS I STAND FOR.

I AM A WOMYN OF PRINCIPLES...I WOMYN OF FAITH & A WOMYN OF MY WORD.

WHAT ELSE CAN YOU ASK FOR.

MY AUDIENCE IS GETTING SMALLER BOII!

BUT I ONLY WANT THE MOST REAL AUDIENCE IN MY THEATRE. LIFE IS A THEATRE & MY FRONT ROW WILL BE A LIMITED FEW...A SELECTED FEW. THE FEW THAT I LOVE & TRUST MY LIFE WITH.

THIS IS SOO HARD!

I KEEP THINKING ABOUT IT & MY ANGER & PAIN COME BACK....MIND OVER MATTER ROZ.

I JUST WISH I COULD KICK THIS PERSON IN THE FACE!!!! BUT I KNOW THAT MY REMOVAL FROM "THEIR" LYFE WILL BE MUCH MORE AN IMPACT THAN A KICK IN THE FACE HUH...YUP!

I MAY BE A LIL' WOMYN IN SIZE...BUT I AM A VERY STRONG WOMYN WITH A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT OF LOVE CAPACITY. I AM ONE OF FEW WHO LEAVE ETERNAL FOOTPRINTS IN THE SOULS OF MANY I COME IN CONTACT WITH.

I AM LOVED BY MANY..MANY THAT COUNT. EVEN THE ONES WHO DON'T COUNT, STILL LOVE ME.

WE TEND TO COMPLAIN ABOUT THE SMALL SHYT... TAKING WHAT WE HAVE IN OUR LIVES ALREADY FOR GRANTED. SELFISH BYTCHES WE CAN BE...SMH!