http://doubler.blogdrive.com/ Deep az I wana Be Mon, 28 Nov 2005 15:35:01 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. Gay and lesbian lifestyles Poetry Destinations http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/38.html Mon, 28 Nov 2005 23:05:25 GMT First of all, I can't believe all these changes I am going through. It's all good though, positive changes, just things I did not expect in my path. I have been in contact with alot of people who have had significant impact in my life and in my persona, as well as new friends who are uplifting me in ways only close folx in my life have. It's nice to actually be able to find more people on my mynal level. I have gotten closer to Mavis, my colleaegue from work. I guess now that my two girls, Sarika & Soph are gone I am getting to know other people I feel a connection with. She seems... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=38 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/37.html Tue, 15 Nov 2005 00:42:52 GMT I WAS GOING TO WRITE A WHOLE LOT OF THINGS IN THIS ENTRY...BUT NOW I AM TIRED OF SITTING HERE. I SAT HERE CHATTING TO MY SIS WHO I AM SICK & WORRIED ABOUT....MY BABIES. SHE FINALLY LEFT THE HOUSE! HAD NO CHOICE. HE WENT CRAZY! TRIED TO BEAT HER! ACCUSED HER OF SLEEPING AROUND...CALLED HER ALL SORTS OF SLUTS & WHORES INFRONT OF MY NEPHEW....SICK BYTCH! RETURNED LATA WITH POPO' TO GET HER & KKIDS THINGS...LUCKILY HE WAS NOT HOME. I FEAR FOR HER. I PRAY FOR THEM. I PRAY THAT GOD DISABLES HIS EVILNESS.... THE DEVIL IS AT WORK. I CAN NOT HATE. REMINDS ME OF THE... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=37 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/36.html Wed, 09 Nov 2005 21:02:11 GMT IT'S FUNNY HOW PEOPLE WHO CROSS YOUR PATH IN LYFE EITHER LEAVE A POSITIVE IMPRINT OR A NEGATIVE ONE. IT'S UP TO US HOW WE CHANNEL THAT NRG SO THAT OUR ACTIONS & WORDS COME FROM RATIONALE VERSUS ANGER & PAIN. ONE MIGHT THINK IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO CONTROL ONE'S EMOTIONS & INSTANT REACTION...BUT LIKE I ALWAYS SAY "MIND OVER MATTER". I AM ON MY WAY TO MASTERING REFLECTIVE REACTION VERSUS IMPULSIVE REACTION. I THEREFORE REFLECT ON WHATEVA THE SITUATION MAY BE, REGROUP, PRAY THAT GOD HELPS ME REACT IN THE RIGHT WAY, AS WELL AS HELP ME DEAL WITH THE ANGER & PAIN I MAY BE FEELING.... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=36 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/35.html Tue, 08 Nov 2005 01:16:41 GMT I MISS MY NEMO.... JUST WANTED TO ADD THAT. EVERY DAY MY HEAD FILLS WITH THOUGHTS OF HER....MEMORIES & ILLUSIONS. I PRAY THAT SHE & HER FAMILY ARE WELL.... JAH BLESS U BABY. LOVE U MUCH. G'NITE MAH... XOXO UR TINK* http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=35 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/34.html Tue, 08 Nov 2005 00:45:28 GMT HAVE YOU EVER DONE SOMETHING REAL UGLY, SHADY, SLY, MEAN OR LOW AGAINST SOMEONE YOU WERE/ARE SUPPOSE TO CARE FOR OR LOVE OR VICE VERSA...??? I HAVE TRIED & TRIED TO THINK OF SOME SHYT I MIGHT'VE DONE BACK IN THE DAY TO A FRIEND OR FAMILY MEMEBER SO THAT I CAN TRY & UNDERSTAND WHY A SO-CALLED "CLOSE FRIEND" HAS DONE SOME ILL SHYT TO ME. I CAN'T EVEN PIN POINT IT ON KARMA!!! SEE...COZ IF I HAD, THEN I WOULD THEN SAY, "OHH WELL, IT'S KARMA MEETING ME TO MY OWN IMMORAL CHANT" ... FRIENDS COME & GO, MY MUM ALWAYS TOLD ME AND YA KNOW, SHE WAS SOO RIGHT! I ONLY HAVE A... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=34 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/33.html Sun, 30 Oct 2005 16:24:50 GMT I just got off the phone with Angie and cancelled plans to hook up. I feel bad, coz I know she was really looking forward to today, so was I but I would'nt have been good company as I am so sleepy still from last night. Sarika & I met up in Baker St Tube station yesterday. We went str8 to Angel where I had lunch & visited Brian at the Carphone Warehouse store to ask him for his recommendation on what phone I should get for my upgrade. It's either gon be a NOKIA or SONY ERICSON. We walked through the market there on Chapel St, then took a bus to Camden where we spent hours looking... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=33 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/32.html Tue, 25 Oct 2005 18:19:45 GMT Yesterday was October 22. This day has significance to me & always will, for 2 reasons. 1). October 22nd Coalition against Police Brutality rallies every year on this day. It's a movement of conscious activists, lobbists, speakers, victims, family of victims & students who come together as part of the movement to fight & speak against the brutality within the police force in Los Angeles & PERIOD! As we all know LAPD are NOTORIOUS for beating on young people, especially if they are of a certain racial/cultural backgroumd - it's now called racial profiling, when... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=32 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/31.html Fri, 21 Oct 2005 21:03:32 GMT It's amazing to me just how much of a difference looking at things in life, with a positive outlook can really make! It is about to be a month since I made my decision to embark on this Spiritual Journey. It feels great! Every day that passes by, I feel more & more uplifted by the love & light my Messiah has blessed me with..I feel stronger, I feel like I can get through everything that comes my way, even though I have always been a soldier. Yeaah, it's like that! Everyday I am feeling uplifted & finding clarity in the things I do. I want everything I do in life to be... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=31 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/30.html Wed, 05 Oct 2005 20:44:24 GMT MOMENTARILY, I AM CONTENT WITH MY DECISION. MY DECISION TO EMBARK ON THIS SPIRITUAL JOURNEY FOR NEW BEGININGS, NEW ENERGIES & TRUTHS. MY RELATIONSHIP WITH TY JUST SEEMED TO BE HURTING THROUGH THIS DISATNCE THAT SEPARATES US BOTH, THROUGH OUR HEADS CLASHING, THROUGH MISUNDERSTANDINGS, THROUGH NOT KNOWING EACH OTHER WELL. WE HAVE SO MUCH TO LEARN ABOUT EACH OTHER, EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE BEEN TALKING FOR THE LAST 7 YEARS. DISTANCE HAS REALLY PROVED TO ME THAT UNLESS YOU HAVE BEEN WITH THE PERSON IN A CLOSE/FACE2FACE RELATIONSHIP WHERE YOU WERE ABLE TO GROW TOGETHER, SHARE, SEE, FEEL &... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=30 http://doubler.blogdrive.com/archive/29.html Thu, 29 Sep 2005 01:35:22 GMT ^^ TY & I @ PIEDMONT PARK, ATLANTA ^^ MMMHMM...AND YES SHE IS A SUPERGURL..lol* SHE JUST GOT OUT SHOWER, DIDN'T DRY OFF PROPERLY OBVIOUSLY. ^^ TY & NANDY ^^ CUTE AZZ NANDY! AWWW...SHE LOVED ME, BUT ONLY COZ I FED HER GOODIES..lol* : FRONT : ^^ DAYUUM , MY BABY LOOKS HOTT!!! HER FRO! OOO, I COULDN'T KEEP ME HANDS TO MYSELF..lol* : BACK : ... MMM MM MM! SEXXXY! TY'S FRIEND/NEIGHBOUR - KEISA. SHE'S GOT A PHATT BOOTY..I... (more) http://doubler.blogdrive.com/comments?id=29